heyy, welcome to the santuary!!
Felicia is the journalist. Do enjoy it! God bless!
I am waiting...
Felicia Chan Tse Yuin - The Journalists!
7th October 1993 - You owe me presents then!
Malaysia - The editorial base
PCGHS - The mission field
My LIFE declaration
Thursday, 31 December 2009
Today I am stepping across the line. I'm tired of waffling, and I'm finished with wavering. Ive made my choice; the verdict is in; and my decision is irrevocable. I'm going God's way. There's no turning back NOW!
I will live the rest of my life serving God's purposes with God's people on God's planet for God's glory. I will use my life to celebrate His presence, cultivate His character, participate in His family, demonstrate His love, and communicate His Word.
Since my past has been forgiven and i have a purpose for living and a home awaiting in heaven, I refuse to waste any more time or energy on shallow living, petty thinking, trivial talking, thoughtless doing, useless regretting, harmful resenting or faithless worrying. Instead, I will magnify God, grow to maturity, serve in ministry, and fulfill my mission in the membership of His family.
Because this life IS preparation for the next, I will value worship OVER wealth, 'we' over 'me', character over comfort, service over status, and people over possessions, positions and pleasures. I know what matters most and I'll give it all I've got. I'll do the best I can with what I have for Jesus Christ today.
I won't be captivated by culture, manipulated by praise, frustrated by problems, debilitated by temptation or intimidated by the devil. I'll keep running my race with my eyes ont he goal, not the sidelines or thoserunning by me. when times get tough and I get tired, I won't back off, back down, back out or backslide. I'll just keep moving forward by God's grace. I'm Spirit-led, purpose-driven and mission-focused, so I cannot be bought, I will not compromised and I shall NOT quit until I FINISH THE RACE.
I'm a trophy of God's amazing grace so I will be gracious to everyone, grateful for everyday and generous with everything that God entrusts to me.
To my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I say: However, whenever, wherever and whatever you ask me to do, my answer in advance is YES! Wherever you lead and whatever the cost, I'm ready. Anytime. Anywhere. Anyway. Whatever It takes Lord; whatever it takes! I want to be used by You in such a way that on the final day I'll hear you say: "Well done, thou good and faithful one! Come on in and let the eternal party begin!"
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.
Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.
The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'
Brian's Essay: The Room... In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.
This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.
A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.
Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.
I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.
And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.
No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.
He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.
He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?
IF THERE IS ONE EMAIL THAT I HAVE READ THAT NEEDS TO GO AROUND THE WORLD, IT IS THIS ONE, FOR THE CHRISTIAN OR NOT! MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL! You don't have to share this with anybody, no one will know whether you did or not, but what do you feel in your heart?
I got that from Bible Bytes Volume 2. I do think it's true to teenagers in this world.
In our thinking, everything is totally not satisfying and never satisfying.
We always think it's not satisfying. In everything we do, we always feel unsatisfied.
We should thank God for whatever we have now! I think everything is a blessing from God. Even when things go wrong, it's okay... Don't blame God! Blame yourself! ____________________________
Actually this just a random post.. I just finish my daily devotion and it touched my heart.. Just felt like touching you too!
Chemistry is killing me!!! Seriously!! That teacher totally thinks we are totally in love with Chemistry! She is so suitable in teaching the tuition outside school!
I have been wondering why those famous tuition teachers don't one to teach in school!
Well, I came up to a conclusion that they are smart! U know why?
This is because you can earn more! Whereas school teachers get a fixed pay. Furthermore, Tuition teachers are confident that they will get a lot of students in their tuition because they know how to explain properly! They put themselves in a student's shoe when preparing what they want to teach. For school teachers, they kinda think the students knows everything already! They treat their students like treating geniuses! Arghh!
I didn't give Doe Chan and Seleng their Christmas presents YET!
I finished Biology reports in.. an hour???!!
I miss school. (No idea why..)
I have to go on diet! (Feel like going on a fruits and vege diet!)
I feel super awkward 'playing' with my cousins! They are more than a decade younger than me!!! I'm the oldest and it's freaking WEIRD!
I'm gonna have a Canadian-Chinese cousin super soon!! (Woohoo!) (Let's pray that the baby will be a girl!)(I have too many cousin brothers and they drive me crazy all the time!)
I want contacts lens!! (Blame Emma Lim for this!)
I still have a great-grandmother! I didn't know that till like yesterday!
I skip ISCA for a month already! (Oops, should I say this?)
I suck a lot in Chinese! (Seriously..)
My ambition is super rare!
I managed to join CF!(muahaha..)(very long story..)
I have a neighbour that take BK at the same place I take! (Can tumpang adee..)
I started a diary but it only lasted for a week! (Blame the teachers in school!)
I'm in the mood of reading Christian books! (Any suggestions??) {reading 'Preparing For Rain'}
I haven't seen Twilight! (I'm gonna buy the CD this weekend! I mean it!)
I am burning! I'm sweating like a mad person even though I'm wearing spaghetti stripes!
I'm suppose to update PCGHS website! (Should I change the layout? It's so old fashion!!)
I can't believe I survive TWO Chinese New Year without someone special! (Do Not misunderstand!)
I finished a whole tin of cookies! (OMG! I'm dead!)
Princess just came in the house to scare me!! Ish! LOL
This is like the most amazing year for me! It's my last year of lower secondary.. Kinda last year of Geography! ( I love Geography a lot!!)
This year started and ended wonderfully.
The best time of my life in this year was during the Combined School Christian Fellowship camp. You can ask me why but I really don't know how to describe that wonderful and beautiful and fun moments!
The other best time of my year was yesterday! I really didn't expect to get 7A's and I guess God had it all planned for me!
The worst time of this year was in May when Aunt Melissa left for Canada! It was like the worst day ever! I will always remember that day- May13. 39 years ago, that day was scary for Malaysia and 39 years later, that day was a nightmare to me.
I really want to thank God for all His goodness and plans for me. I believe that next year will be greater year and I will continue to grow in YOU!
Anyway,
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY!!!
Through this new year, may you all soar and fly like an eagle!!
The last post was actually taken from another website..
Actually, I'm really amazed on how God created the heavens andthe earth. After hearing both the sermons by Louie Giglio, I was imagining what if I was with God on the week He created the universe, the heavens and the earth.
The whole universe is like so huge, and the earth is only a size of a golf ball and we are living in it! But, God still uses us to do His works! How great is that, huh??? It did blow my mind..
There are so many thousands of galaxys and inside a galaxy are thousands and thousands maybe infinity of planets. The truth is God create THEM ALL!
Isn't that so cool?
Thinking about it actually relates a lot to me about this picture..
That is baby Jesus .. He came to this earth for???
He came to die for all our sins!!! But still a lot of people don't believe in this.. There are still people that say this is just a fairy tale!!!
If Earth was the size of a golfball. Betlegeuse would be the diameter of 6 Empire State Buildings. If the Earth was the size of a golfball, and you were the tiniest little person on that golfball. How big is our God.
Numbers are taken lightly. A million seconds ago was 12 days ago. A billion seconds ago was… in 1975. A trillion seconds ago….
was in 29 700 BC.
A quadrillion seconds ago…
was 30 million 800 thousand years ago.
There’s a star called Musepheus.
It’s so big that you can fit 2.7 quadrillion Earth’s inside that one star.
There’s a star called Canus Majoris.
It’s the biggest star found… yet. If the Earth was a golfball, it would be the size of Mt.Everest.
The Hubble Space Telescope took a picture of a black hole in the middle of the Whirlpool Galaxy.
You can’t possibly tell me that that doesn’t blow your mind.
There’s a protein molecule in our bodies that keeps everything in place. It keeps everything as it is, as it should be. It’s called Laminin. It looks like this.
Isn't all this amazing???
Your life is a miracle, and the creator of the universe knows you by name!
He's big enough to breathe out stars, yet intricate enough to fashion together the trillions of cells that make up every facet of who you are.
The God who spoke the universe into existence made you, too, and knows everything about you.
From the smallest molecule to the situation you find yourself in right now, He's aware of your circumstances and intimately acquainted with everything you do.
And He cares about you and promises to carry you through.
That's where we find hope in the midst of the darkest places in life.
The journey often complicated and painful, filled with confusion and chaos.
Yet, the cross of Christ reveals God's promise to preserve and restore you no matter what the circumstance.
He will hold onto you and hold you together, giving strength to those who hope in His unfailing love.
I am really too bored until this boredom makes me think about the school days and my wonderful life this year.
It's the last month of the year already and thinking back God really did a lot of hidden miracles to me!
I had a really great time in school this year. I’m really amazed with God’s plans. He took me out from my own comfort zone and this makes me meet more friends, friends that I usually say hi or bye only become great friends of mine now.
I’m really happy after joining the Combined School Christian Fellowship Camp. I met new friends. One of them is now on the way to receive Christ as His Lord and Savior. Hanniel Tan is his name. I didn’t actually talk to him during the camp. I got closer to him after the camp when Gwendoline ask him whether he wants to watch ‘Kungfu panda’. Right now, I’m trying my best to minister to him and I believe that in God’s timing he will receive Christ as his Lord and Savior.
This year to me was kinda tough. I face lots and lots of challenges. At one point of time, I almost give up but I want to thank Sarah Yeoh Y.E. for encouraging me through out that moment. Right now, thinking back, God really did a lot of miracles in my life this year.
Actually, I just came back from prayer meeting. Wilson was worship leading and I really love the song he sang – ‘Count Your Blessings’. We as somebody that is always filled with God’s love sometimes don’t appreciate it. We have God beside us all the time and we don’t take good care of that great love. I also like the song 'He Will Carry You'.
Lyrics:
There is no problem too big,
God cannot solve it.
There is no mountain too tall,
He cannot move it.
There is no storm too dark.
God cannot calm it.
There is no sorrow too deep,
He cannot soothe it.
Chorus:
If he carried the weight of the world
Upon His shoulder
I know my brother that he will carry you.
If the carried the weight of the world
Upon His shoulder
I know my sister that he will carry you.
Bridge:
He said come unto me
All who are weary
and I will give you rest
Count Your Blessing
I really amazed in what God has done in my life. Honestly, I rarely read the bible last year. I always think that the bible is really boring. After experiencing God’s grace upon me, I never fail reading His word. I began to love Him more and more each day.
Thank You, God for being so good to a sinner like me!
When the clock strike 9.30a.m. on the 17th of October 2008, all the Form threes of Malaysia shout for joy!
Exactly like what the SMS I got from Wang Ching "9.30a.m. 17 Oct 2008. Tarikh bersejarah yang tidak dicatat dalam buku teks, bagi semua penduduk Tingkatan 3. Bendera Penjajahan PMR (Perang Mati Remaja) akan diturunkan bermakna kami telah berjaya memperoleh kebebasan. Darurat 'duduk rumah study' akan dibubarkan."
So, that's history already..
For now, my job is to clear all the books from my table! My table is like a hill of books right now..
Then, I have to plan for next year.. I'm gonna choose Add Maths, Chemistry,Biology, and Accounts!
I just love Bio and I really don't know why.. muahaha.. It's just that I'm waiting for God answer whether it's the right choice or not..
It's really a good thing that I have the study 'gas'.. I've been studying non-stop since last Monday..
Tomoro, it's tha 51st National Day of Malaysia.. I'm actually relating this to Sejarah Form 3.
I still can remember in Chapter 1 Japan came and attack Tanah Melayu(Malaya)..
Chapter 2 is the building of Malayan Union and UMNO.
Chapter 3 is all about communism... Chin Peng(Sarah's relative)(hehe)..
Chapter 4 is about CLC( Community Liaison Commitee), Laporan Razak and also the Pilihanraya..
Chapter 5 is about Perisytiharan Merdeka, Suruhanjaya Ried, Perlembagaan Merdeka and Permasyhuran Merdeka..
Chapter 6 is about Sabah and Sarawak getting Merdeka..
And..
Chapter 7 is about the forming of Malaysia..
( I seriously didn't refer to the book at all except for Chapter 4 as I was not really sure)(not bad, rite??)
I finish studying Geografi too!!
but I can't memorise all the titles of the chapters..(hehe)
I'm gonna start on KH and Science tomoro..
signing off,
~Felicia~
* All the best to those who are sitting for UPSR, PMR, SPM and STPM..
* Hui Jen, don't get mad if u see this..( I'm not going to school this Tuesday..u noe why la..)(Why not u too don't go to school??)
* Charmaine, don't say that I always study.. cause I only study before exams.. So, pls delete that fact that I always study from the blur group blog..(thks!)
I really can't wait to blog about this.. I'm sorry for not having any photos..
But..
It's still nice..
There's only one word to describe the concert: A W E S O M E !
I really enjoyed myself..
I reached church at bout 3.30p.m. for the 'tuition' by Alyssa.
At 6p.m.,Sarah,Theresa,Melissa,Sher Yen and me walk to CRC for dinner. We met some church members there. On the way there, Gwen saw us, so her mum and her walk and join us for dinner...
When I reach church, I saw Marcus and Ervina... When the concert started, suddenly a lot of youth rush to the front.. I really freaked out(If you're there,I guess u'll feel the same too!)(hehe..)...
The praise and worship was amazing.. Though I was still wondering..There was a question pounding in my mind-Were the youths praising the Lord or praising the band?( I can't find out the answer..)
Offering time:
Christina was sitting with me.. The pastor asked everyone to stand up, I was wondering why do we stand during offering when we usually sit??? Christina was also asking this question when the pastor ask us to bow down and pray.. Then only we know why are we standing.. (blur!)
After that, Matt Heins from PCC(Paradise Community Church) preach.. He was a really funny preacher..hehe.. still can remember those jokes he made..
After the sermon, we continue to praise God..
Oh ya, my bro bought Only By Grace.. Wanna see?? will update soon la.. haven't got time to upload that pic.. hehe..
My favourite song from the concert: My God and King
Lyrics:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Verse: Almighty God over all the earth
Yours is the power and glory
You reign victorious
Every knee will bow and every tougue confess
Chorus:
Jesus, You are the risen One
Truly You are the Son of God
You are the light to all the world
First I will seek Your kingdom
Jesus, You are the risen One
Truly You are the Son of God
You are my light, my hope
You are my God and King.
Bridge:
With all my heart I love You
With all my life I serve You
With all I am I follow You
My God and King
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I really love this song!
Hope that this song will bless you..
signing off, Felicia...
*Sorry, I can't find the song from youtube or imeem.. Will try to upload it soon..
If Earth was the size of a golfball. Betlegeuse would be the diameter of 6 Empire State Buildings. If the Earth was the size of a golfball, and you were the tiniest little person on that golfball.
